Mama!

I spoke to my son just now. (As if he can talk like an adult already!).

He just woke up, my MIL say he listened to the voice on the phone, but say nothing.

While i can heard my MIL kept saying

'Mama tu bercakap. Panggil mama, mama, mama'

My usual script when i call him:

Hello Yong2!
Apa khabar? Baru bangun? Sudah makan?
Apa Yong2 makan hari ni?
Kenapa Yong2 batuk? (if he is coughing while i'm talking).
Papa di mana? Kerja?
Cakap la Yong2! Mama ni. Tidak rindu mama ka?
Eee..Yong2 ni jahat la sama mama. Tidak mau cakap. Nanti mama tidak mau sayang Yong2 tau. (I hope he didn't take heart of this one).

Mama ada beli baju baru untuk Yong2 tau. Cantik tau! Nanti mama bawa balik aa...

I usually keep talking as long as i have chance untill he refuse to listen anymore.

but today my son still kept quite. No response. Perhaps he is recognizing my voice. My MIL told me he looked at the phone and concentrate on the voice coming out from it (the loudspeaker turned on).

Again, my MIL said, 'cakap la Yong2. Panggil 'mama'. Pandai sudah kan panggil 'mama' macam Yong2 panggil 'papa'. Kesian mama!'

The 'kesian mama' sentence suddenly made me hurt and down again..Tears rolling down again..no matter how strong i tell myself 'DON"T CRY, DON"T CRY'.

Not long after that my MIL told again, 'nah dia tolak sdh ini telefon'.
Thats mean he didn't want to listen anymore. At that time, i already sobbing but need to control since i have a short conversation with MIL. Just informed her i can not go home this month beacause i need to attend the 'Kursus Induksi' in Penang for about 2 weeks.

Then, the phone call ended.

I am STRONG actually but i just can't control this one. Only this one. That is anything about child.
But yeahh..if i dun take care of myself and let myself drowning into this matter..me will be in a big trouble. Relieved to know that there many people full of loves and ready to comfort me, support me and be my good advisor when i'm down.

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL. AMEN

Mix up mind = mix up entries

YESTERDAY.
I went to the PJB Dewan Besar, just wanted to have a peek on whats going on there. The Closing Ceremony of the new students Orientation Week.

I felt touched when looking at the new faces that for sure some of them will be my students starting next week.

I exactly knew what they were feeling. Just like what i felt back in year 1999.

Yup, if i'm not mistaken the registration date was on 26 June 1999, Likas Campus.

Came for registration to University Malaysia Sabah aka UMS with my big big size green baju kurung. Felt very shamed and isolated because did not know anyone and almost joining back my family to go back to Kudat, my hometown after registered.

I was lucky indeed because almost the whole family sent me over all the way from Kudat to Kota Kinabalu for the registration. My father rented a van owned by our relative since we had no car at that time. The same scenario here. Their parents, brothers and sisters came along.

On that day, came together was my mum, my youngest sister and my youngest brother who was pee almost 5 times along the way and the van driver have to stop nearby people house so my brother can borrow their toilet.

While for me, there were a lot of things going on my mind along the way. One of the question was: will i survive?..this question came up considering that i never been separated from my family.

I went back to kampung almost every weekend since i can't stand being away from family too long. My expenses going up but i didn't care as long as i can meet my family.
Weekend=balik kampung.
It was my routine for months till my brother who was sponsoring me before i got my loan complaining about my expenses..but eventually i managed to get used to the new life.

Well, whatever it is, i wish THEM good luck.

TODAY, 10/07/09

Academic Advisor meeting held at 8.00am.

This semester, all lecturers are given 1 class to be taken care (macam jadi guru kelas la). I'm given DUP 1B (Diploma Pengurusan Pelancongan, Kelas 1B). Most of them are fresh from Secondary school.
No wonder, when i stepped in to the class and say
"Good morning class"
to my surprised they stood up and replied
"Selamat Pagi Cikgu"!
I was..oh, oh, tak perlu berdiri, ini bukan sekolah menengah lagi.

My words made the whole class laughed. Hahahaa...saya pun ikut ketawa juga. Perhaps my reactioned towards their actioned made them feel warm and informal. I love their expressions. Looking at me in front of the class like i'm their sister.

So i went bla..bla..bla..telling and explaining this and that..almost half and hour..and done. As an Academic Advisor i do need to meet them once or twice a month to keep abreast with their progress. BIG responsibility huh..tapi takpe. i take the challenge. Caiyo caiyo to me!

INDUKSI.
Last monday, received a letter to go for 'induksi' (it is a course that must be attended by all new government servants). I'm excited since the venue is in Pulau Pinang, Tanjung bungah Hotel.

Will stay there from 19 July till 30 July. Yeaaaa!! All expenses are taken care. Food & accommodation. While for transportation..boleh claim. So, we decided to take flight instead of ground transportation considering the time to reach the destination is quite long. Expecting more outstations this semester.

Thats all for now.
BTW, sorry because this entry is a little bit messy. As messy as my mind right now..

Happy Weekend everyone. God Bless You.

Its Tuesday

A bit occupied these few days.

1. Registration of the new students for July intake which was held yesterday. There was one student i registered from Likas Sabah. But he's planning to move to Politeknik Kota Kinabalu soon.

2. Preparation for next week P&P (Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran) such as preparing the lesson plan, preparing the FRP (Fail Rekod Pensyarah) which is to be submitted this week to the Head of Dept. / Head of Course for 1st checking. I'm done 70% of it.

3. Orientation Week for the hospitality students, which is started yesterday till this Friday. Today is 'gotong-royong' at my dept to prepare the classroom for next week P&P, and in the afternoon is launching of the Orientation Week.

So, i guess there is no time for me to daydreaming this few days. Every now and then, its better to be occupied with office tasks then do nothing or else my mind will fly back to Sabah and start to feel down again.



That's for now. Cheers everyone and happy working!

Setiap Kali

Air matanya berderai lagi
mengalir tanpa ada rasa segan
membasahi pipi,
si ibu yang kepiluan
SETIAP KALI..

Langkah kakinya lemah lagi
bersama esak tangis yang kedengaran
tidak menoleh ke belakang lagi
hanya meninggalkan kesan dihati
yang tak akan terlupakan
SETIAP KALI..

Si kecil hanya memandang
tidak mengerti siapa yang datang
siapa yang pergi
Si kecil hanya tahu
dia dibelai, dia disayangi
kerana itu KEPILUAN datang lagi
mengasak asak minda
SETIAP KALI..

Si ibu tidak tahu
Si ibu tidak pasti
kenalkah si kecil
siapa yang datang?
siapa yang pergi?
SETIAP KALI..

Dan si kecil tahukah?
si ibu sebak
SETIAP KALI?

There i go again.. its been a long time i have not written any poem since i left university.

This morning, the phrase 'Setiap Kali' suddenly popped out from my mind and i just took 1 minutes to write it. The poem is written with tears of sadness falling from my eyes. Silently.

Sometimes and every time its better to voice out feeling this way. It is brief and understandable. No need to worry about sentence structure errors. Its all about the beauty of literature world. You can write freely without worrying where you should put your verb, noun, predicate and so forth.

The poem is in fact reflecting my feeling towards my son recently. I noticed that when i was home last week he seems to be more interested to get closer to his grandma than me. I don't know. I don't sure either. Everytime he cries, he will run to his grandma. I envy that. I am his mother,why he doesn't want me to comfort him? He also does't want to 'hug hug' me like last time i was home.

I talked to my hubby about it and again, the same answer i get. 'Its just your feeling. No matter what, you are his mom. He is our son. It is just that all this while mom taking care of him. Nothing to worry.'

I know that. Clearly. He is right but still deep in my heart ' i can't accept it for now'.
Why last time when i was home, he was fine? Why this time different?

Oh, son! Just if you know what mummy feels!

Next time i back home, i'll make sure i'm not staying at my MIL house. I want my son aware of my presence only and wants only ME. Its sounds weird and cruel but have to do it. I don't want my son to see people that he used to see everyday when i'm around. I want him to see only ME. i have gone crazy i think..

Farewell friends!

Our office today having a farewell party for two of our friends who are leaving for their good. They are leaving to serve the youngsters at their hometown.

The lady (free hair) is one of my gud friend leaving for Politeknik KK. The male one is leaving for Poli Ulu Terengganu. The Lady in the middle is my Head of Department. The background showing the people who came late for the morning briefing..hehe..

Nak pindah pun dapat hadiah. Confirm, kalau sa pindah, dapat juga la..hehehe..


Accompanying her to go around for picture taking


Jom makan2...


Gud friends last forever..Ena, Liza, Yani, me..

Mr Rossie (Sarawakian) with his girlfriends..(*_^)

Nasi pulut dan rendang..yummy!!

Thats all for the latest news. I have a big hope that early month next year will be my turn to say goodbye to this department.

Anyway, cant wait to fly back to Sabah. TODAY. Yiihaaaaaa!!!!!!


DEAR TIME.

Please fly as fast as you could and bring me back to Sabah ASAP.

Thanks so much,
Uzoeiy.

Do you fart while u are sleeping?

Don't say you don't!

Hehehehee...because i did last night.

Very funny. Right after i farted, i woke up. Hahahaha! i asked my housemate either they heard any 'magical sound' or smelled 'new brand of perfume' last night or not.

Luckily, they didn't heard or smelled anything. And the good thing is, i'm not the only one who is farting while sleeping. My other friends do as well. So, nda malu la.

That is beyond our control, right?

Banyak lagi orang suka kentut sana sini. Kentut depan wife or hubby, boyfriend / girlfriend. Tapi yang paling suka kentut terang-terang ni ialah lelaki. Sorry to mention that guys! (*-^)My hubby la. Always do. Tapi takpe, kentut pun jadi wangi kalau dah sayang..hahaa!

The WORST is when the person is farting in the elevator. One of my ex-colleague told us he did it sometimes. With a strategy somemore. He told me, he farted when he is about to stepped out from the elevator. Apa lagi, menyumpah-nyumpah la orang dalam lif tu. Adoiii la..


Note: Jangan kentut time temuduga ye. Especially, bila dah kena confirm 'Congratulation, you are hired'! Nanti kena pecat terus macam dalam cerita STEP BROTHER tu.

Hehhee..tiba2 cakap pasal kentut pula.

Apa pun kentut la untuk kesihatan. HAHHAHA...

(My mind gone crazy today!)

Le francais

Bonjour! je' m'appelle Uzoeiy.
(Hello, my name is uzoeiy).

(the word 'francais' which is pronounced as fron-seh means Bahasa Perancis )

It was fun learning other languages but, i admitted that le francais is very difficult in term of pronouncing the words. That is because the sound of the word is totally different from the spelling.

I salute la orang yang boleh menguasai bahasa asing yang satu ni. Kalau kursus baru 2 hari dah rasa mo muntah, apa lagi kalau perlu study sampai boleh menguasai bahasa ni. huhuhu..confirm saya fail dengan cemerlangnye!(*_^)

Yang paling menarik sekali untuk kita tahu ialah dalam Bahasa Perancis setiap benda ditentukan sebagai lelaki dan perempuan. Pelik kan? Macam benda hidup pula.

Contohnya rumah adalah perempuan. Kenapa? sebab rumah adalah tempat kaum wanita. Manakala benda2 yang hightech pula kebanyakan jantinanya adalah lelaki.

hehehee..lucu kan. Kawan2 yang lelaki berabis tanya la jantina barang2 yg dorang nak.

Ayat2 yang paling sy ingat:

1. Faire la bise (fay la bis) / bisous (bizo) = kiss
2. vous allet bien? (pronounce: vu za lay biang) = how do you do?
3. Mon amor (pronounce: mo amo) = My love (male to female)
4. mon cheri (pronounce: mon cher) = My love (Female to male)

dan paling best:

je t'aime beaucop (pronounce: jay tay may boku)= i love you very much.

Kalau nak pergi Europe, kena faham sikit2 la juga. Sekurang2nya ayat2 yang selalu digunakan untuk greeting. Pesan paling sa ingat juga yang lecturer tu cakap, jangan sesekali SENYUM tanpa berkata apa-apa terutama dengan lelaki.

Kenapa? SENYUM tanpa kata-kata kepada seseorang bermaksud 'an invitation to have sex' dengan orang yang senyum tu. Nah..kan bahaya tu. Hehehe.. dekat sini, Malaysia senyum adalah cara untuk menyapa seseorang. Nasib nasib..

Alright..done with my sharing about Le Francais.

Bahasa Perancis

A quick post before continue dis afternun at 3pm for kursus bahasa Perancis ( since yesterday).
Boring i tell you.

Its damn difficult. Lain ejaan lain sebutan. Pening..so i decided to hafal perkataan yang sy suka je..hehhe..

Nanti sy share di entry yg akan datang.

Me? A secretary? Oh, No!

Been busy lately. Can u imagine its semester break still but i have loads of task to be done?..huhuhu..

I never thought that i'll be given a SECRETARY post in any department i attached. Its already set in my mind that 'kerja secretary susah la. Taip itu, taip ini..have to follow bos pergi meeting la, bla..bla..'! Nah, ambik ko..ketulahan! my friend said to me..

I'm so unfortunate when all my additional task in my department are secretary.

1. S/U Akademik Jabatan - functioning once in a while.

2. S/U Kursus Pendek Jabatan - functioning every semester break..huhu..

3. Penolong S/U Malaysian Qualification Agency aka MQA Peringkat Jabatan- functioning since last week and have to admit this is the most tough one. This year Politeknik Johor Bahru is on the way to get the MQA accreditation. Luckily i'm aware and already exposed to MQA at my last company. But still tough..

Well, whatever it is, i take it all positively. The good thing is i can request to minimize / reduce my teaching credit hour and can drop the no. 1 and no. 2 post after considering the toughness of the post no.3. Lucky me!

Hehehe..If not can't blame me and the team if PJB failed to get the MQA accreditation due to hospitality department submitted the incomplete document..Tough huh?.hmm...will do my best!

Daniel Yong2 - The Latest

I like when he wears cap..muaahmuah!!mummy miss u ody yong2..

his face when he's trying to whistling..

Perfect for the cam..

with his aunt Oying, my youngest sister..

Yong2, mummy and his aunt Naniey, my 2nd youngest sister

With daddy outside the kampung church after Sunday praying...

Busy playing with ballons..pict is taken inside the Borneo Rainforest, at 1B

The cutting hair session..

the uncle barber have to hold his head..

Tadaa!!!now he is botak ody..

2 IN 1

The holiday is over

I still can't believe i'm now back in JB again.

Still tired. Can't get enough sleep last night. And now, i'm barely can't open my eyes. sleeeeepyy...

Upset with AirAsia recently. Always delay flight. My flight delayed about half an hour..suppose to depart at 9.05pm but delayed to 9.30pm due to late arrival of the aircraft from JB. Aikk..satu kapal saja ka pula..arrived JB last night 10 minutes to 12am. And today have to wake up early to live life as usual.
Life that goes like this everyday:

8am-5pm = WORK.

5pm-6am=WINDOW SHOPPING sometimes, EATING, READING, WATCHING MOVIES @ home cinemax, MANDI, TIDUR.
My life's routine here will be like this until further notice..ahaks..dat means will change if i go back to Sabah la.

6am-8pm=MORNING ACTIVITIES like normal working people do.

Boring.......BORING..boring..BORING..

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shocked!

I was very shocked when i opened my inbox today.

An emel from a friend=childhood friend=long distance relative=ex-housemate ACCUSED me doing things wrong without asking me the truth..i feel so down..

I met her last 30th of May on her sister's wedding and everything was fine till i read her emel today.
shocked!shocked! still calming myself..silenty contacting some people to clarify things and to prove that i didn't do anything wrong that can effect our friendship.

I tell you, when you expect nothing is wrong and everything is just fine, and suddenly things went wrong your world will go upside down, heart beats go faster and speechless. Just like what i felt when i read the emel! It took me an hour to think in which side i did wrong.

ooppss..sorry to keep you readers wondering what the hell i'm talking about here. I just would like to voice out my dissatisfaction.

To my Friend (you know who you are)..just in case you coming across my blog , i never meant to hurt you. It doesn't matter if you or me was wrong but, i apologize.

Happy Elephant

What do you think the baby elephant feels in the picture below?

happy elephant!

Thats exactly what i feel right now. HAPPY!!!! Just like the happy elephant above.

WHY?

I'm counting the time to fly back to Sabah. TODAY.

Yeayyyyyy!!!!Hooraayyyy!!Yippieeee!!!

Will be departing from Pasir Gudang to Senai Airport at 3pm.

Can't wait. But i know my excitement will be soon doubled. (Jumpa hubby and baby, mesti la kan)

And this will be my last entry till i connected to the internet again. Perhaps one week from. Still at the office ni. Gatal2 sudah punggung ni mau jalan cepat2 pigi airport..hihi..

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR

Its raining outside right now. Hmmm..what a coincidence!

Today the same time and day, 2 years ago, was my wedding day. Its the same situation. Still fresh in my memory the nervousness i felt because of the rain. How if the rain doesn't stop? is he already reached church or still on the way?

At that time, i was ready for our matrimonial ceremony scheduled at 1.pm. All the worries gone when somebody inform us that my hubby's side (all the way from KK to Kudat) was about arriving at the church. They have to stop (because of the rain) at my uncle's house located on the way up to the church (FYI, our kampung's church is on the top of a small hill. There is a road to the church but it is not accessible by small vehicle at that time - till now).

So, there is no choice other than to climb up the hill. Sian kan, pengantin pun kena jalan kaki ni..But, that was for hubby. Sian hubby. From KK pakai wira ja kan..nda boleh naik jalan bukit yang buruk jalan.

For me, hehee...uncle's car -frontier / DMX? (can't remember.) was specially provided to transport me to the church. Kereta ni kuat kan, jalan gravel dan buruk pun boleh saja. Yang penting pengantin sampai church. Thanks ya uncle Nonong!

That was our story 2 years ago.

TODAY..is already the 2nd year of our marriage. Its more meaningful this year with the presence of our little prince 1 year old Daniel Jeconiah @ Yong Yong, who have brings lots of joys and happiness to both of us and families.

Especially to you My Dear Hubby..


When i found you
i gained the finest prize
a companion to share life's joys
a friend who lightens burdens
whose company is always a comfort


when i found you
u embraced the love i had dreamed of
the source of endless pleasure
and memories to treasure!


Today is our 2nd Anniversary.
2 years ago it marks the day when we both said " I Do'.
The two of us become as one.
Now time has passed, our love is strong.
We have passed so many tests and
i hope..
we will realize our love each other more than ever
and
may each year keep getting better!


I LOVE YOU HUBBY.
HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY and MAY GOD BLESS US.

How dare you hubby!

I was in a friend's wedding party with my mum, my dad and my brother. My hubby was working at that time, that's why i go with my family. In my surprise, i saw my hubby was eating a bowl of ABC in between of the crowd. Wasn't he supposed to be at work at this time? I wondered. He noticed me but he acted like he don't know me and kept busy with his ABC. I walked straight toward him but he still acted like i was not there. When i was almost near, suddenly a girl approaching him and come closer to him. That girl seems like whispering something to my hubby. They face were so closed to each other and i guess that girl's lips almost touching my hubby's cheek. Oh God, what was happening there? My step stopped and my heart beat goes faster. I couldn't believe what i saw just now! My hubby don't even noticed my presence.

I manage to hold my tears to drop and made my way to get out from the crowd. How dare my hubby do this me? I cry and cry and cry and cry.....till...

Adedeh..sia bermimpi rupanya!

Nasib la sa mimpi saja. Can't imagine if that really happen to me and hubby oo..

I think that is the result if we think too much of something kan..

Tommorrow is our BIG day actually. Our 2nd Anniversary....ngngngng..(crying)..so sad, i am here and hubby is there..(sigh)..

Thinking : what to give my hubby this time?

Langadon Oku Diolo

* A Dusun song which is sung by Jenilin Jane. Nice voice!



The song tells exactly how i feel right now. Longing hubby and son and everyone i love back home - Sabah.

*Sesiapa nak ikut nyanyi, this is F.O.C..Silakan saja..

Think Positive / Richly Blessed

I've been thinking hard on what to write as an entry today since arrived at office this morning. I always wanted to write something inspirational thought to share with anyone who stumble upon my blog. A blog that very humble and could be at the last ranking if there are ever blog ranking in the blogs world. But i don't really care since this blog is my perfect avenue to share my journey as a woman, wife and mom, and friend to those can accept as who i am...yewww..sounds boring right?..kadang2 otak sa jadi 'blue'...

So, here it is. I give it 'Think Positive / Richly Blessed' as title as it reflects things that i've gone through so far and how i face and handle it.

Recalling my first day in Politeknik Johor Bahru aka PJB untill now made me think that 'Oh, actually, its not a big matter at all'. I mean, through all the conflicts i face here namely homesick, seniors staff first impression toward me (and the other new lects too), food and so forth..After one phase, i started to tell myself that whatever happen 'THINK POSITIVE'.

Yes, THINK POSITIVE. And the result? I managed to get rid all the negative energy that have been reside in me eversince i first step my foot in this land.

The key is, when other people keep complaining this and that been wrong, me, in contrary try to look at the thing in the positive angle. Its work. I find serenity at every tough situation everytime i THINK POSITIVE. Of course myself effort alone is not make it, but God's hand and blessed came along.

Not long after that, i feel that my life here is RICHLY BLESSED when many positive things come along. I truly conscious that LORD is working in my life. I also realized that i've been ignoring HIM for sometimes as i focus too much on the negative side happening to me couple of months ago.

I'll keep thinking positive to receive more blessing from GOD.

So, to all, Happy Weekend. May God grants you strength to THINK POSITIVE to every negative occurance in your life.

GOD BLESS.

1, 2, 3,..etc..

1. I hate working now. No more class as this week is study week. Will be busy 2morrow. Kunu la. Polytechnic Johor Bahru 11th Convo.

2. I miss home again. Hometown. Yong2.Hubby. Arggghhh...!!!

3. Terrified with the news told by our neighbour early morning today. Robbery at the TASKA nearby our rented house. The robbers took with them 3 / 4 PCs and printers.

4. Just not very comfortable with some people who are too childish. I mean when come ghost thingy, there are too 'penakut'. I mean hey! Come On! You have GOD that you can depends on. If you believe that there are ghost in your house waiting to munch you anytime, where is the place of GOD instead? You believe ghost more than your God meh?..Think about it.

A post that is nothing to do with the title. Ntah la, today feel so boring after came back from the convo rehearsal dis morning.

I just...wanna go home and be with hubby and son.

To all Mothers - JUST A JOKES!

To mothers who are reading this post: Please do not be get offended ya!

It is a message from a friend on Mother's Day, sent to me yesterday.

TO ALL MOTHERS:

Its normal when you look in 20s,
u'll look very 'MENGANCAM'

When you're in year 30s, you begin to behave 'BERMACAM-MACAM'

When you turn 40s-50s, you'll feel 'TERANCAM'

and SADLY....

When you reach 60s above, orang langsung tak boleh 'CAM'!

Anyway, hope we'll all maintain 'MENGANCAM'.

This Mother's Day..

I would like to wish all mothers out there and me myself:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

Specially to my mum and mum in-law, even though there are not reading this;

Your love and care, i hold dear in my heart. May God Bless.

i'm back

arghhh...tension early morning!

This is what i don't like after coming back from leave. A lot of postponed tasks waiting to be settled. Marking tests and assignment, update attendance and blablabla..dateline is this Friday.

Ngngngng..so boring! but what to do, mau cari makan, kena karaja, kena rajin..or else teda makan!

Anyway, i'm back to work. A lot of things to share especially about my son - Daniel Yong2 (i miss him already!). Will post about it when i'm free.