Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Counting

13 days to come. Its about two weeks more to wait till 29hb comes.

Yuupp..I'm counting the days. The day i fly back to Sabah to meet hubby, son and families. For some people, it could be considered a small matter, but its the other way for me. Mungkin sia ni terlalu pentingkan kekeluargaan. I never been away from family this long. It is really a hard time for me to live without them.

and that is why......

I came to office yesterday with a pair of swollen eyes due to heavy 'downpour' from both of them last night. (uuih..buat peribahasa sendiri ni)..hmm..beginilah kalau berjauhan dengan family. My mum siap kol lagi pujuk me sebab sa sms dia sa rindu baby dan rasa nak nangis. Memang nangis pun sampai tersumbat hidung. Habis credit my dad.

At that time, I feel like i'm still their pampered and loved little girl some 30 years ago. .Hehee.. and in fact i still want them to treat me like that! This doesn't means that i can't turn to my hubby and tell him everything i feel. Hubby is always the first but sometimes i miss the time when mum and dad calmed me. Tu yang tiba2 jadi begitu tu..

I've been keeping my tears for a while but last night i couldn't stand it anymore. Especially when hubby told me my son 'boleh round-round ruang tamu sudah berjalan'.

I've learned again that no matter how strong you are, u'll lose to your own feeling one day. Buruk la orang besar menangis tapi i don't care with what people say.

hmm..Luckily i don't have any class today. So, i can hide my 'mata panda' from my students at least for today.