Down

Its been two weeks already Yong2 is here with me.

Now, i understand more of him and i can surely say HE is a little bit spoiled. slightly stubborn too.

I sometimes can't resist to raise my voice when he does something wrong and worse i even can't resist to 'rotan' his little feet when he really refuses to listen to what i say..uhuuhuu..jahat ka sia?..

Well, i just don't want him to be too manja. What makes me always giving up when i'm about to raise my voice, rotan or pinch him is he will make face that make me straight away carry and hug HIM. Trus nda jadi marah. Kalau jadi pun, sia akan menyesal.

Every afternoon when i come back from work, he will wait for me at the gate of our rented house..nah..siok betul sia rasa..buka ja pagar, dia terus minta dukung and peluk sia erat2 macam yang dia rindu betul sama sia..tapi, lepas tu dia tidak mau minta lepas. My mum said, 'baru dia mau merasa dan nampak ko hari2 ba tu'..hmm..betul juga.

Tapi sampai sia nda buli masak, mau mandi pun dia mo ikut, mau pee pun mau juga dia ikut...

I can say that i've been happy for this two weeks but right now..

I'm down.

I miss my hubby so much...argghh..

It strikes me when i was listening to some Dusun love songs. Tiba2 ja sia rasa rindu betul sama hubby..oh gosh!! sedih sia!!

Yong2 is here but i'm still incomplete without my other half..sampai sia TERnangis di ofis.

Oh God, give me strength..

Breaking The Frozen Ice

Good Day to all blogger's friend.(or bloggers' friend? lupa la mana satu betul. correct me if i'm wrong ya).

What a title, right? Hehhee..

I've been missing from the blogworld for ages ..huhuu..tidak juga sibuk tapi malas nak tulis apa2..poor blog of me.......

Last saturday i attended Nc's weeding reception. Happy to see her finally settled down and join the club. Welcome to the club Nc! and hope your marriage will be blessed forever. I was unable to take pictures because my video cam is still at the shop for repairing...sedih juga. lambat betul siap repair.

At the reception, i met Nadia a.k.a NadKris, whom before i only know and chat through FB and blog..Nad, memang serupa dengan yg di gambar sama yang sebenar..Hahahaha..memang la ba kan..Nice and happy to see her and Kris.

Nad:Will pray for you both so that your planning for your next year wedding going smoothly.

Just a big update i guess, from now till 23rd december, Yong2 is here with in JB..Happy but sad..Sian daddy dia. Time d airport semalam, macam mo menangis daddy dia sebab kali ni giliran dia pula berjauhan dengan Yong2. Darling dear, that's the feeling i felt before. Don't worry, i'll take good care of our little prince.

So, that means for a moment i'll be functioning as a mum, fully.

Lazying at home at weekend

I went to bed late last nite, woke up early this morning, play farmville till lunch time, start 'zzzzzzz' at around 12noon and woke up at 4.20pm..

I skipped church today..have no mood to go out from home. I spent my day playing games..not really a quality time during weekend but i'm just lazy to spend time outside..For some, may say 'boringnya hidup dia ni' but i prefer it that way..at least i'm not exposed to the various pollutions (air, wrong-doing of couple, etc.) outside.

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O yea..talking about wrong-doing of couples in public, i remembered an incident at a restaurant nearby our housing area. It was last month during the fasting month. Three friends and i were waiting for our meal being served and sat right next to our table was a muslim couple. We couldn't really sure if they are just married (but clearly seen no INAI at their hands), just declared as a lovey dovey couple or what but we were extremely irritated by their drama..

Hishh..tell you pals, mo muntah kami tingu 'drama' dorang ba..bergesel sini bergesel sana..renungan si perempuan terhadap si lelaki, renungan si lelaki terhadap si perempuan..tangan si lelaki ampai sana, tangan si perempuan ampai sini.. Yakss!!

We obviously and clearly said things that we hope they will heard such as 'eeee..teda tempat lain ka mo buat begitu', 'bikin malu la', 'Ipah (one of my friend), jangan ko buat begitu aaa sama bf ko, bikin malu', 'eeeii..sudah la tu, mo muntah kami tingu'..

You guys know what..they just make don't know ja..as if we weren't talking 'bout them..Sungguh x senonoh dan tak tau malu. Time puasa lagi tu..Hahaha..kami pun penyibuk ni, mau tingu juga apa dorang buat. The waiters at the restaurant just ignored them. Benda2 mcm ni bukan apa, we take it as a LESSON aka pengajaran aka pedoman..

Hehe..cerita selingan.

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Tommorrow is Monday and i'm going to be busy again, i guess..so its better tonight i go to bed early. I still uploading 3D2N camping pictures. Internet is slow currently makes me no mood to upload it.

Till then, Good Night to everyone. Have a good rest and God Bless U.

Back to the civilized world!

Huahuahua..i'm back to the civilized world! Back to office yesterday. Not so busy but still there are things need to be done.

Stories from the trip to Endau Rompin Park? Lots to share but its better to let the pictures talk, right? I'll upload all the pictures in my fb this evening.

Time mo balik sudah. Ni dekat main entrance sebelum turun ke jeti.

Kitorang kena naik bot penambang untuk pergi ke campsite. Dari tepi sungai boleh nampak tahi gajah besar2..pun nda sempat ambil gambar.

bekas digigit 'pacat' di lengan sia. Ada lagi satu bawah bontot. silaka punya 'pacat'. Sia nda sedar pun bila dia naik kaki sia.

Nasib nda masuk mana2 lubang yang ada, Hahaha!

Kira mo ambil gambar time pacat tu sedang menggemukkan diri dengan darah sia, tapi nda sempat.

Sa nampak ja, trus rasa geram dan geli, laju ja tangan pigi buka. Ni belum kira yang baru sempat melekat ni, hisshh..memang banyak la.

gambar bawah ni pla, kaki student sedang 'bleeding' lepas pacat dibuka, Dorang biar ja.

Ada pla yang biar ja pacat tu hisap darah dorang.. hissh nda mau la sa. Kena gigit pacat ni tak sakit pun.

Yang sia nda suka, bila pacat tu da kena tarik, darah tak berhenti keluar. Mula2 sia nda tau..pas tu sa rasa macam basah2 seluar sia, rupa2nya bekas pacat gigit tu masih bleeding, trus macam kebocoran time period pula.

Gambar bawah pula, salah seorang penduduk kampung orang asli di Kg. Peta yang kami lalu sebelum sampai ke jeti. Cerita-cerita dengan dia, dapat tau pla bapa dia ni orang Sabah. Ceh, sia pun macam terkejut juga la, ada juga keturunan Sabah orang asli.

Kesimpulannya, memang siok la juga trip ni. Next trip pada 30hb-1 Nov ni ialah ke Pantai Cherating Pahang. But this one not camping, tinggal dekat chalet..hehee..means no pacat la this time.

Trip balik Sabah belum dapat rancang lagi. sedihnya,.ada ja aktiviti. Tapi nda pa, kasi buli ja ni!

(*_^).

Camping at Endau Rompin National Park (Johor-Pahang)

Yeaay..! Tommorrow is the day.

I'm going camping like i post earlier in my fb.

Hehehe..year 2006 was the last year i went camping di Sabah..takut2 sia oo..

besides the excitement i also fear of many things..as if i never go camping kan..

It could be because of the following reasons:

1. this place is not in Sabah - tapi apa beza juga kan, kalau di Sabah camping site di hutan, sini pun hutan juga..hmmm

2. or because of the earthquake that hit Sumatera yesterday which i read in an online newspaper, the effect is also slightly can be felt in Johor - haiyaa..palis2 la kan teda apa2 juga

3. there is no telephone line there -hurmm, hubby is not really agree with me to join at first but since it is part of my responsibility as a tourism lecturer, he let me go finally. Ya la..sepa nda bimbang kan, 3 hari nda buli dihubungi dan di tempat orang pula..Dun worry dear, i'll take care myself and i'm gonna miss talking to you and Yong2 on the phone!

Logik juga la kan sia susah hati..Tapi sia tau HE is walking with me.

May HIS grace be with us throughout the camping. AMEN.

I am going camping!

2nd October 2009, Friday, 8am.

Yupp..i'm going to Endau Rompin State Park this friday for 3D2N campsite stay. The Park is the 2nd largest national park in West Malaysia. Located in the midst of Johor and Pahang, covering 80,000 hectares of virgin jungle.

The trip is organized by Kelab Pelancongan Jabatan Hospitaliti, PJB and me and a friend have been selected as 'pensyarah pengiring' for the trip.

I searched through the internet regarding the park and yes i found so many info. Well, the organizer do provide the itinerary but i want a short glimpse of what and how things are waiting us there.

Basically, from PJB heading to Kluang by PJB bus, then 3 hours ride of van or 4WD to go to the jetty, an hour boat ride to get to the main entrance before trekking to the campsite...huh..memang adventure la kali ni..and nda sabarnya sia..

At the top of my camping checklist now is a CAMERA!

Sick and Homesick

I am now Sick and homesick.

That's the two words that probably the best to translate my self right now.

My taste buds are not well functioning since yesterday...so, i just had these as my dinner today..

Plain soup of Mee Hoon, cabbage, fishcakes and fishballs (prepare it by myself)
Tapi itu pun nda habis makan..

Grapes (bought from Econsave Supermarket)

Feel hungry right now, but no apettite to take food at this moment. Hope to be better by tommorrow.

Blessed Monday to ALL!

One more week to go. For the Muslim, they should be happy now as their fasting month will be ended very very soon and celebrating Hari Raya for another one month. Two of my muslim's friends say 'dugaan makin hebat bila dah nak hujung2 puasa'..hmm..not sure how truth it is since i do not fasting..

I'm not muslim and not fasting but still can't wait for the cuti raya to come. Yeaah..wanna go back home this Friday till 27th September..Nah, kalah2 orang yang mau beraya..my dear brother said last night, better i buy a plane since i going back to Sabah frequently..hahahaha!

Oh yea..juz can't keep it to myself, i passed the 'Ujian Undang2' last Saturday. 42/50..Lucky me! So i guess, there will be no problem after this especially the JPJ test..still far to go to that level though. I can only continue after the raya holiday..

This week, semester break begins for the Semester 1 students. I will be free the whole week since most of the classes i teach are semester 1 class..Yeaayy..!

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Currently Listening to Radio Online: http:/um.com.my

Yiihaaa!! sambil lompat lompat ni di bilik + senyum2 mms dengan hubby..

Ngeee..i just can't keep it to myself..mau juga bagitau satu dunia ni..hehe..I've done the first step in the list in my MISSION to get driving license this year. Sioknyaaa..

I'll sit for the 'Exam Undang2' on 12th September next week..huhu..hopefully saya lulus!

Deleted comments in Fb

Last nite i deleted tw0 comments on my status in my FB account..its because i feel offended with their comments..

Its not a big matter though but i dont like to see the comments everytime i go to my fb profile..i'm very particular about how people use their ability to speak fluently and write neatly in any language..speak only nice words and write only neat words!

Nevertheless, when come to expressing something its better to think twice which word is the most appropriate to use..Like my FB status last night..'listening to sabah vfm'..a friend comment 'kasian..dengar lagu sabah saja la khaaann..'. Kan bagus kalau dia cakap 'siok kan ada technology sekarang, mana2 ja kita berada pun buli dengar lagu Dusun'..I really offended! Macam menyindir saya saja ni..i think many times either delete it or leave it there but finally i deleted it.

I know, she wanted to show she is concern and sympathy to my situation now but sorry i just cant accept the way she did it....tak tau macam mana mau explain tapi memang tidak sesuai di hati saya cara dia cakap..macam yang saya suka pula jauh2 dari hubby sama anak sa..eeeii..entah la, geram pula bila saya ingat balik..

The 2nd comment deleted because she started her sentence with 'bogima..' (oops hey,,its not the p****a word okay..) it is in Rungus languange which means almost similar with 'kasian (kasihan)'..i also don't like it..so i deleted it too la..

Really sorry to 'them' because your comments were deleted. I'm not begging for people to 'kasian' me. I prefer support..

A late night update. Have done the housekeeping in my room and also ironing my working attire for tommorrow..sleepy now, but feel like wanna update my blog. So here it is.

Only now have the chance to surf the net freely..blog hopping, reading and leaving comments on some friend's blog..checking facebook too.

Last night, the internet connection was terrible. While today at office, time was just not permitted me sit down and relax..classses, students problem to attend, late student registration to handle and bla bla bla..nevertheless..i am happy though. For the things that just passed. Its good to always remind ourselves TO BE GRATEFUL and FEEL GOOD for whatever things we have gone through for the day, neither good or bad..it makes me SMILE right now. I know GOD is happy too seeing me in this way..

Leaving all the worries behind are almost impossible if you are a type of person that easily be carried away by it..i experienced it too..its okay if you give yourself a time to be carried away but make sure after certain level be conscious and straight away think of positive things..remember GOD. Remember HIS word 'segala sesuatu ada waktunya'..so i think its not wrong if we sometimes say bad words, do wrong things,moody or just gone crazy even over a small things, right? Hahaha..don't be annoyed readers, its the only things running through my head right now..okay, okay..enough with all those pointless thought.

Now, its about my holiday last week back there in Sabah. I had a good time with hubby and son. Had a quality time with them.PERFECT ONE. In particular.

The two VVIPs in my life. My Dear Hubby and My Beloved Son.
Always missing their smile..

Can't wait to be with them again two weeks from now.

its good to be at home.

Yupp. i am now at home. My real home i mean. In Kota Kinabalu.

Touched down at Kota Kinabalu today from Johor Bahru at 9.33am..

I feel like wanna hug my hubby when i saw him waiting for me right in front of the arrival hall this morning..hahhaa..

Just a frank confession from me, i don't know why if other wives feel the same way with me or not..but i do feel excited to see my hubby everytime i go home..it's the same feeling i felt everytime we met when we were dating..ahaks!..terbongkar rahsia sia kan..

As for my beloved Yong Yong..he excitedly smile at me when i arrived home..trus dia minta dukung sa..oohh..terharunya sia dia buat gitu..then, i straight away show him what have i bought for him, a new pair of shoes, a set of coloring book and also pants and shirts..and he also eagerly helped me to bongkar my luggage and took out all the things i packed inside..hahhaa..sweet Yong Yong..tidak sah kalau dia nda dapat tingu semua barang2 dalam beg..i just let him be because he will usually put all the things back at the place where he took it. Good manner for a small kid like him.
Agenda this evening is dinner with my family: hubby, dad and mom, sisters and brothers..Yumyum..

Relief

Why should i?
Hehehe..because i have done some a must-to-do updates in my FRP (Fail rekod Pensyarah)..

Besa la..lepas kelas nda update..bila ada semakan baru mo buat..hihikhik..not a big matter though, because the most important thing is everything is in accordance to the so called LESSON PLAN..

I am reading newspaper right now. Berita Harian. Spotted one headline pg 12 'tiada sambutan ambang merdeka' sempena menghormati bulan ramadan.

Ahh..itu pun ada kaitan dengan title post saya..hahha..relief juga..at least teda la masalah2 sosial yang akan terjadi selain daripada utk elakkan penularan wabak H1N1.

Personally i feel very blessed living in a very peaceful country (minus those political conflicts in which i don't give them a damn). Especially when i go balik kampung..so peaceful, so calm and oh, i just feel refreshed everytime i go balik kampung..Nah, bisuk sia mo menghirup udara tanpa pencemaran...nda sabarnyaa..meninggalkan daerah Pasir Gudang yang sia tinggal sekarang walaupun sekejap ja..

Huh..satu lagi headline yg menarik perhatian sa 'rahsia cabul, rogol 4 anak terbongkar', di Terengganu..oh, my God..kes yang bukan baru. Perasaan ingin mencincang 'bapa' tersebut membuak2 dlm hati..sanggup merosakkan anak sendiri..diugut oleh ibu sendiri pla tu kalau mo buat laporan polis..budusssss betul. Nasib la salah seorang anak perempuan tu berani buat laporan polis. Memalukan betul..

oh ya..sebelum saya menyatakan hal ini, saya ingin meminta maaf kepada sesiapa pembaca Muslim yang terbaca coretan ini. Seluruh rakyat Malaysia tahu, sekarang ni Bulan Ramadhan @ Puasa. Yang bukan muslim sudah tentu tahu macam mana selayaknya mereka makan dan minum sepanjang bulan ni.

Cuma yang tidak sioknya, ada sesetengah organisasi MEMAKSA seorang pelajar pelatih bukan muslim untuk berpuasa. Pity her. Sedangkan saya pasti dalam ajaran agama Islam, teda ada suruhan untuk memaksa non-muslim berpuasa, am i right?

On the other hands, a non muslim friend who is i think not alert and concern enough put a status in his facebook 'haus, lapar'..which i think to certain people who sees it will feel irritated.

Hurmm..why people nowadays are so selfish a?..

Reasons To Feel Good

Everyone has reasons to feel good like i do..the first thing first is you must set in your mind that 'I FEEL GOOD' all the time. I am telling you this not based on others opinion but it is purely from my own thought and from what i'm keep doing in everyday life and trying to maintain it no matter how big and terrible things come to me. IT WORKS..(even right now i'm crying, missing my son so much)..yeah..i still feel good for many good things that happen in my life recently..

and there is ONE extra ordinary person who makes me FEEL GOOD all the time.GOD.

So, here are some of HIS blessings onto me that makes me feel so good:

1. HE blessed me with new a notebook: ACER ASPIRE, 4736G..so that my hubby can use the old one for his work purpose.

2. HE blessed me with new SE mobile phone in pink colour which i dreamt for it since last year..NC, mesti ko tau mana satu ni kan..yang kita tingu2 sana ground floor centre point tu..hehe..harga dia murah sdh..

3. HE blessed me with a good health and opportunity to remove the oil cloth under my eyes which have been there since the time that i'm not sure either .. i give 100% trust to the team of Adeline Skin Care and Beauty to make the changes for me.

4. HE blessed with an opportunity to play for my department in winning 2nd place in the InterDepartment Netball Games, held last Wednesday. I played as Wing Attack aka WA..huhu..masih sakit2 badan sa sbb nda pernah main sejak tahun 1996..

5. HE blessed me with another chance to 'balik kampung' next week on Friday to see my hubby and son. THE GREATEST BLESS OF ALL and the main reason i feel so good today..sambil nyanyi lagu iklan 'i feel good'..(*__*).

Huhahuha!!!

Huha yihaa!! 5.30 hari ni ada latihan netball..i'm quite excited since this is my 1st time playing netball since last i played for my school..

At this moment me and 11 others in the Hospitality department, representing our dept for PJB Netball Inter Department Competition. Can't wait to back in action!!hehehhe..

huh..its been a long time i didn't update my blog..And today there is a reason why i suddenly being so motivated to write an entry.

I could say it is a PERMISSION or GREEN LIGHT from the DIRECTOR of Johor Bahru Polytechnic aka PJB.
YES. Me and a friend met up with PJB Director this morning, personally to discuss about status of our application of airticket from Johor Bahru to Kota Kinabalu this coming December..For your kind information, any government servant who has been working for 9 months and above is entitled to apply for free airticket to going back to his/her hometown (sabah/sarawak to semenanjung only and vice versa )..one more good thing being a government servant.!

We, however besides ticket, have also mentioned our intention and hope to be transfered to Kota Kinabalu Polytechnic. The director has shown his concern and his point that he will support our application really made us both relieved..Having the guarrante from our BIG DADDY is the greatest achievement so far in our effort to going back to Sabah. He even advice us to submit our application best after Hari Raya since currently the ministry of higher education is still busy relocating those staff who have been promoted to a new position.. The CHANCE is there, the SUPPORT is also there, only TIME is yet to come..

News from Penang..

Hello friends!! Finally i made myself online again...mahal la nak bayar WIFI di hotel ni. Imagine RM8 per hour. If not because i really wanted to update my blog, teda la sa mo bili ini access untuk guna WIFI..mahal bangat..
Anyway, this is our picture taken while waiting for our luggages, on our arrival at Bayan Lepas Airport, Penang. Tidak sabar mo pigi induksi kunu..Ni geng2 Politeknik Johor Bahru aka PJB.

The building called Tanjung Bungah Hotel, our home from 19th-30 July. The back view of this hotel is a beautiful beach..tapi nda berapa sempat mo menikmati pemandangan sebab sibuk berkursus...

Kumpulan cikgu2 yang suka bergambar sebelum kursus bermula..hehhe..

The view from the 6th floor of Tg Bungah Beach Hotel.

Ready for chicken Dance before the course start..

Today is Batik Day!

Thats all for now!

The 'Tumpung' and Mee Rebus Hj. Wahid'

This is a big bottle of 'tumpung' i saw this morning when we went to have breakfast at Rosni Cafe nearby PJB..Hehehe..yang hairannya kenapa 'tumpung' tu diletakkan dekat situ (dekat car park)..

The picture above: Restoran JR (Mee Rebus Hj. Wahid) where we had our lunch today. What do you think when i say mee rebus? Mesti yang ada sup kan? Dekat sini, mee rebus rupanya ialah seperti gambar dekat bawah:

Mee yang direbus dan kuahnya diperbuat daripada kentang dan ubi manis yang dikisar atau dilenyek. Lepas tu dijadikan sebagai kuah mee yang direbus tadi. Lain2 bahan, telur rebus dihiris, ada udang juga dan boleh campur hirisan daging ayam..Selalu orang masak untuk pekatkan kuah, guna kanji. Yang ni pakai ubi manis dan kentang..ok juga macam healthy ja. Rasa mee rebus ni ok la juga. Sedap tapi cepat jemu bila makan.

The Welcoming

Yuuhuu..today is a wonderful day.

After Sunday prayer, me and two other friends (PJB lecturer also) took time to meet the new students from Sabah and Sarawak. There were about 6 of them.

We had lunch together and while having lunch give them chance to share their experience. It is good to hear that all of them promise to adapt to the campus life. After that took them to buy their needs. One of the girl from Ranau, craving for durian. So, since the durian here is very cheap and available almost all the time, we took them to KIPMART (a supermarket) to buy some durian.

FYI, you can buy durian here as cheap as RM1 per piece..some RM2 /RM 3 per piece, and some RM10 for 4 / 6 pieces...murah kan? Tapi mesti pandai pilih juga la. If you want the good grade which is a little bit expensive, the price is still affordable compare to the price in Sabah.

We bought 6 pieces (the RM2 per piece) and headed to my friend's house to makan2..and now perut sa rasa panas. Maybe i had too much of it. Hehhehee..Jadi kawan2, kalau mo makan durian puas2 jom datang Johor. Aisehmen..promote kunu ni..

Next time, i go back to Sabah i want to bring durian. Some friends suggest and had tried a very safe way to bring back durian by flight.

Of course you can not bring the whole piece of it la. They said senang saja..ambil ulas durian tu and masuk dalam kontena, seal kontena tu rapat2 and ketat2..kalau buli bungkus la berapa lapik ko mau..pas tu jangan bawa masuk dalam kapal tu, masuk kan dalam kargo...however, i'm not dare enough to try..hehehhe..

Alright, thats all for now. I better focus on my preparation for tomorrow class. I kept postponding it since yesterday..besa ni buat last minute preparation macam juga time study dulu. Jam 8am lg tu..

Ooopsss!! lari tajuk ka saya ni..

The Re-Union

Grabbed this picture from Michelle's FB. Even some friends are missing but still the mini re-union was a memorable one. Wishing that can have gathering with ex-uni mates every month. Love u guys!!

Mama!

I spoke to my son just now. (As if he can talk like an adult already!).

He just woke up, my MIL say he listened to the voice on the phone, but say nothing.

While i can heard my MIL kept saying

'Mama tu bercakap. Panggil mama, mama, mama'

My usual script when i call him:

Hello Yong2!
Apa khabar? Baru bangun? Sudah makan?
Apa Yong2 makan hari ni?
Kenapa Yong2 batuk? (if he is coughing while i'm talking).
Papa di mana? Kerja?
Cakap la Yong2! Mama ni. Tidak rindu mama ka?
Eee..Yong2 ni jahat la sama mama. Tidak mau cakap. Nanti mama tidak mau sayang Yong2 tau. (I hope he didn't take heart of this one).

Mama ada beli baju baru untuk Yong2 tau. Cantik tau! Nanti mama bawa balik aa...

I usually keep talking as long as i have chance untill he refuse to listen anymore.

but today my son still kept quite. No response. Perhaps he is recognizing my voice. My MIL told me he looked at the phone and concentrate on the voice coming out from it (the loudspeaker turned on).

Again, my MIL said, 'cakap la Yong2. Panggil 'mama'. Pandai sudah kan panggil 'mama' macam Yong2 panggil 'papa'. Kesian mama!'

The 'kesian mama' sentence suddenly made me hurt and down again..Tears rolling down again..no matter how strong i tell myself 'DON"T CRY, DON"T CRY'.

Not long after that my MIL told again, 'nah dia tolak sdh ini telefon'.
Thats mean he didn't want to listen anymore. At that time, i already sobbing but need to control since i have a short conversation with MIL. Just informed her i can not go home this month beacause i need to attend the 'Kursus Induksi' in Penang for about 2 weeks.

Then, the phone call ended.

I am STRONG actually but i just can't control this one. Only this one. That is anything about child.
But yeahh..if i dun take care of myself and let myself drowning into this matter..me will be in a big trouble. Relieved to know that there many people full of loves and ready to comfort me, support me and be my good advisor when i'm down.

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL. AMEN

Mix up mind = mix up entries

YESTERDAY.
I went to the PJB Dewan Besar, just wanted to have a peek on whats going on there. The Closing Ceremony of the new students Orientation Week.

I felt touched when looking at the new faces that for sure some of them will be my students starting next week.

I exactly knew what they were feeling. Just like what i felt back in year 1999.

Yup, if i'm not mistaken the registration date was on 26 June 1999, Likas Campus.

Came for registration to University Malaysia Sabah aka UMS with my big big size green baju kurung. Felt very shamed and isolated because did not know anyone and almost joining back my family to go back to Kudat, my hometown after registered.

I was lucky indeed because almost the whole family sent me over all the way from Kudat to Kota Kinabalu for the registration. My father rented a van owned by our relative since we had no car at that time. The same scenario here. Their parents, brothers and sisters came along.

On that day, came together was my mum, my youngest sister and my youngest brother who was pee almost 5 times along the way and the van driver have to stop nearby people house so my brother can borrow their toilet.

While for me, there were a lot of things going on my mind along the way. One of the question was: will i survive?..this question came up considering that i never been separated from my family.

I went back to kampung almost every weekend since i can't stand being away from family too long. My expenses going up but i didn't care as long as i can meet my family.
Weekend=balik kampung.
It was my routine for months till my brother who was sponsoring me before i got my loan complaining about my expenses..but eventually i managed to get used to the new life.

Well, whatever it is, i wish THEM good luck.

TODAY, 10/07/09

Academic Advisor meeting held at 8.00am.

This semester, all lecturers are given 1 class to be taken care (macam jadi guru kelas la). I'm given DUP 1B (Diploma Pengurusan Pelancongan, Kelas 1B). Most of them are fresh from Secondary school.
No wonder, when i stepped in to the class and say
"Good morning class"
to my surprised they stood up and replied
"Selamat Pagi Cikgu"!
I was..oh, oh, tak perlu berdiri, ini bukan sekolah menengah lagi.

My words made the whole class laughed. Hahahaa...saya pun ikut ketawa juga. Perhaps my reactioned towards their actioned made them feel warm and informal. I love their expressions. Looking at me in front of the class like i'm their sister.

So i went bla..bla..bla..telling and explaining this and that..almost half and hour..and done. As an Academic Advisor i do need to meet them once or twice a month to keep abreast with their progress. BIG responsibility huh..tapi takpe. i take the challenge. Caiyo caiyo to me!

INDUKSI.
Last monday, received a letter to go for 'induksi' (it is a course that must be attended by all new government servants). I'm excited since the venue is in Pulau Pinang, Tanjung bungah Hotel.

Will stay there from 19 July till 30 July. Yeaaaa!! All expenses are taken care. Food & accommodation. While for transportation..boleh claim. So, we decided to take flight instead of ground transportation considering the time to reach the destination is quite long. Expecting more outstations this semester.

Thats all for now.
BTW, sorry because this entry is a little bit messy. As messy as my mind right now..

Happy Weekend everyone. God Bless You.

Its Tuesday

A bit occupied these few days.

1. Registration of the new students for July intake which was held yesterday. There was one student i registered from Likas Sabah. But he's planning to move to Politeknik Kota Kinabalu soon.

2. Preparation for next week P&P (Pengajaran dan Pembelajaran) such as preparing the lesson plan, preparing the FRP (Fail Rekod Pensyarah) which is to be submitted this week to the Head of Dept. / Head of Course for 1st checking. I'm done 70% of it.

3. Orientation Week for the hospitality students, which is started yesterday till this Friday. Today is 'gotong-royong' at my dept to prepare the classroom for next week P&P, and in the afternoon is launching of the Orientation Week.

So, i guess there is no time for me to daydreaming this few days. Every now and then, its better to be occupied with office tasks then do nothing or else my mind will fly back to Sabah and start to feel down again.



That's for now. Cheers everyone and happy working!

Setiap Kali

Air matanya berderai lagi
mengalir tanpa ada rasa segan
membasahi pipi,
si ibu yang kepiluan
SETIAP KALI..

Langkah kakinya lemah lagi
bersama esak tangis yang kedengaran
tidak menoleh ke belakang lagi
hanya meninggalkan kesan dihati
yang tak akan terlupakan
SETIAP KALI..

Si kecil hanya memandang
tidak mengerti siapa yang datang
siapa yang pergi
Si kecil hanya tahu
dia dibelai, dia disayangi
kerana itu KEPILUAN datang lagi
mengasak asak minda
SETIAP KALI..

Si ibu tidak tahu
Si ibu tidak pasti
kenalkah si kecil
siapa yang datang?
siapa yang pergi?
SETIAP KALI..

Dan si kecil tahukah?
si ibu sebak
SETIAP KALI?

There i go again.. its been a long time i have not written any poem since i left university.

This morning, the phrase 'Setiap Kali' suddenly popped out from my mind and i just took 1 minutes to write it. The poem is written with tears of sadness falling from my eyes. Silently.

Sometimes and every time its better to voice out feeling this way. It is brief and understandable. No need to worry about sentence structure errors. Its all about the beauty of literature world. You can write freely without worrying where you should put your verb, noun, predicate and so forth.

The poem is in fact reflecting my feeling towards my son recently. I noticed that when i was home last week he seems to be more interested to get closer to his grandma than me. I don't know. I don't sure either. Everytime he cries, he will run to his grandma. I envy that. I am his mother,why he doesn't want me to comfort him? He also does't want to 'hug hug' me like last time i was home.

I talked to my hubby about it and again, the same answer i get. 'Its just your feeling. No matter what, you are his mom. He is our son. It is just that all this while mom taking care of him. Nothing to worry.'

I know that. Clearly. He is right but still deep in my heart ' i can't accept it for now'.
Why last time when i was home, he was fine? Why this time different?

Oh, son! Just if you know what mummy feels!

Next time i back home, i'll make sure i'm not staying at my MIL house. I want my son aware of my presence only and wants only ME. Its sounds weird and cruel but have to do it. I don't want my son to see people that he used to see everyday when i'm around. I want him to see only ME. i have gone crazy i think..

Farewell friends!

Our office today having a farewell party for two of our friends who are leaving for their good. They are leaving to serve the youngsters at their hometown.

The lady (free hair) is one of my gud friend leaving for Politeknik KK. The male one is leaving for Poli Ulu Terengganu. The Lady in the middle is my Head of Department. The background showing the people who came late for the morning briefing..hehe..

Nak pindah pun dapat hadiah. Confirm, kalau sa pindah, dapat juga la..hehehe..


Accompanying her to go around for picture taking


Jom makan2...


Gud friends last forever..Ena, Liza, Yani, me..

Mr Rossie (Sarawakian) with his girlfriends..(*_^)

Nasi pulut dan rendang..yummy!!

Thats all for the latest news. I have a big hope that early month next year will be my turn to say goodbye to this department.

Anyway, cant wait to fly back to Sabah. TODAY. Yiihaaaaaa!!!!!!


DEAR TIME.

Please fly as fast as you could and bring me back to Sabah ASAP.

Thanks so much,
Uzoeiy.